[Part 1/3] How Psychedelics Changed My Life.

When something shares your DNA, your blood, and your life from within you...

Nothing can prepare you for the innateness of how it just makes sense.

You are biologically, psychologically, spiritually, physically and emotionally bonded in the only way anyone will ever be to this being.

So when the decision was taken from me, that my baby will be taken from me... it was incomprehensible for my soul.

It was the initiation of the most awakening time for me.

Having this decision placed upon me subsequently resulted in life as I knew it morphing into the unknown.

I trusted that if I was not meant to have my baby, it came to show me what I needed to see.

And it did.

The 18 months that followed were the darkest times I ever want to experience.

I never truly understood suicide. Until I did.

I spent weeks and months searching for anything to guide me, give me peace, to comfort me and take away even the tiniest bit of pain.

All I was hearing was women who had been through similar circumstances but years down the line, still had no peace with it.

But still, I kept searching.

Which was when I came across a story of a woman, who 20 years after losing her baby in the same way had finally found healing through an ayahuasca journey.

So I decided this was what I needed to do.